Live With It.

by Nic Adkins

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TimTTT I see Nic as a pup with big paws. While I think future projects need big improvements in production &voice training, I think he has something special. With maturity, seasoning & counseling I think he could really develop into a great singer/songwriter. Favorite track: First & Last.
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Written and Performed by Nic Adkins
Recorded by Alex Couts @ Lazy Dog Recording


released October 16, 2016



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Nic Adkins Kent, Ohio

Songs about getting over ur baggage


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Track Name: Texting & Driving
There was something unfamiliar and I didn't know what to think. But you started acting different and it made me feel empty.

I started texting and driving again. You told me to stay safe and start thinking.
Well I've been thinking a lot, mostly about you and the things you do.

You'll start to forget about us
I'll forget about your lack of trust
This isn't gonna happen and that's clear to see
But that's alright with me

And there's something in my chest that pulls me closer to you. Not sure if I like it or not, but if you're okay with it I guess that I am too.

I fell in love with your laugh nothing compares to sound . You're always there to pick me up when I'm feeling down.
I've got 3 months to impress you before you leave town and if I'm being honest I'll miss having you around.

You'll start to forget about us.
I'll forget about your lack of trust.
This isn't gonna happen and that's clear to see.
But that's alright with me.
Track Name: Restless
My bones are weak from the way I've been living. Sleeping on couches seems like every evening. Gotta keep moving, can't even stop. Chill out for a second and then my conscience catches up. And we sing

La da da da, da da da da daaa
La da da, da da da da da
La da da da, da da da da daaa
La da da da, da da da daaaaaa

The dats seems worse, like it can't get any better. Then I find myself thinking about how I wrote you that letter. It said
    "I'm sorry I don't know how to trust you and I wish I knew how to make you happy. I've tried my best to make sure that you're okay, but sometimes I feel like you'd be better off without me."

La da da da, da da da da daaa
La da da, da da da da da
La da da da, da da da da daaa
La da da da, da da da daaaaaa
Track Name: Myself
You always said I'm such a piece of shit
Now I'm starting to believe it
I know I couldn't give you what you need
Because I made everything about me
I'm sorry that I pushed you away
Honestly I'm surprised that you stayed.
I know I can get nasty
But then you just ask me
What are you going to do with yourself

I get anxious when I'm by myself
So I stay surrounded by everyone else
I keep on fretting
And keep on regretting
What I have done to myself

I get sick to my stomach when I hear your name
All because I know that I'm to blame
For making you so cautious
And concerned about your losses
What did I make your hate about yourself

People think that I'm so relaxed
But they don't understand that it's just an act
To convince everyone I know
That I don't feel so alone
I get so scared nothing compares
How have I become myself

You packed up shit and you left today
I didn't think I was dependent on the way
That you made feel not so insane
Now there's always a haze in my brain
I'm always upset
I know I'm a mess
I only did this to myself

I'll drive to your house and knock on the door.
You never answer me anymore
I'll driver home sober and still get pulled over
What am I going to do with myself
Track Name: Alone
You're always asking "Why don't you. miss me."
It's hard to miss someone who made you leave
You only cared about yourself
Never considering how I felt
The only people I need are my friends and family
I just hope that they're all proud of me

Surround yourself with people who care
Don't leave it to Laissez-faire
You gotta put in a lil bit of effort
But I promise you things will get better
Everything is harder on your own don't let yourself be alone
Track Name: First & Last
The first time I kissed you was in the hallway. I thought that I had finally won. I felt I had overcome all my fears and inhibitions. I felt as though I had triumphed only to be let down

You light up the room when you walk in
You're like the sun but you don't hurt my eyes when I'm starin'
So immaculately beautiful, a concept I cannot comprehend
Wanna be with you wherever my day ends

Somethings never change and some never go as planned. I'll try to my hardest but I will never understand
The things that I do and put myself through just to try to find happiness with you

We've tried the same thing a thousand times over
Nothing ever changes but we're both a bit older
Every time I feel like I should quit
But then I remember my house is not a home until you're in it

The last time I kissed you was in my front doorway. I peered out the window and watched drive away
Never to return, never to let me in. So now I'll just wait for my new life to begin